Allowing yourself to be led
I have a confession to make. I am currently doing life without a plan, and it feels good.
If you know me at all, you’ll know that I have always been a very committed goal setter. Over the years, I have led countless workshops about goal setting, in settings from crossfit gyms to coffee shops to 5 star hotels and pretty much everywhere in between. I write about goals, I do visioning exercises for myself and with my clients, I dream, I plan.
So last month, when I found myself not wanting to envision and plan out my 2019, it’s safe to say I was a little confused. Especially since I had been looking forward to doing just that!
I have an overachieving, straight-A student part of my identity, and it was freaking out at my laziness. It wanted to control, to plan, to push and force and put loads of pressure on myself.
But there was this other piece of me emerging, this piece of...well, peace. A piece of peace.
The peaceful piece of me didn’t want to do any visioning. The peaceful piece wanted to be here, now, experiencing the joy that comes with just being present.
The peaceful piece was wise, too. That part of me knows that, frankly - I can vision all I want but the future isn’t up to me. Try as I might to control the heck out of it (and believe me, I do), life will happen, in ways that I can’t control or even really imagine.
Accepting that is tricky for me. I talk a lot about being the master of your Universe, the creator of your life. And I still believe that...to an extent. But sometime recently I’ve practiced surrendering the belief that it’s all up to me. I’ve been taking that weight off my shoulders, and I feel lighter. I’m working on accepting that what will be, will be; that I am already on my path, and that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. I’ve been relinquishing control and asking that the way be revealed.
It was a little scary at first (Miss Overachiever was kicking and screaming), but I got the support I needed to stay in this easy, healthy flow. And oh boy does it feel good. Every day I ask myself, “What if no matter what you did, life was going to happen the way it happened anyway?”
I am trading pressure for presence.
I am trading worry for anticipation.
I am trading fear for trust.
I am trading force for ease.
I don’t know what’s going to happen and that’s ok. No day but today.
If this piece resonates with you and you’d like to explore more ways to invite ease and flow into your life, here are (a few of) my favorite resources.
The Universe Has Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein
The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer
A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle
The Lively Show with Jess Lively (this focuses on tapping into your inner voice)
Oprah’s SuperSoul Conversations (with Queen O herself, focusing on giving time to yourself to be fully present)